i dont know what's up with me lately. my mood is always near the pits, i'm snappy and bitchy. basically, i'm one very hostile person these days. and no matter what ppl say, 'you can always talk to me', there are always some things you don't say to ppl, for a bunch of reasons.

don't get me wrong, i really appreciate it. but when you don't even know what's happening how do you tell someone else? or you're not comfortable speaking about it. or you simply dont have one person you trust to unload it onto because you know that once it's put to words, even you yourself knows it's selfish, unreasonable, desperate or totally irrational.

being alone is the best sometimes. because you simply dont need to care about other ppl, or what they think. mom used to say something abt me living in a 'one man island' or something. yea, i'll probably die there.