it's so tiring, when people have expectations of you. it's hard to live up to and the dread that follows in the wake of their disappointment. no, it doesn't provide the motivation for me to work harder. in fact, i just want to run away from it. i kinda hate it when teachers say: i expected better from you. i'd feel like such a failure.

ok anyway, my mom just changed her mind again. it's ok for me to go to UoM now instead of HKU. that's coz my dad offered to chip in half for my studies there. well, that's provided UoM would actually want me there based on my results... ugh. and then they started the whole responsibility talk all over again.

and why my dad can suddenly chip in? coz he's finally quiting his job of abt 15 yrs, and jump over to a similar company in china with better prospects. haha good for him then. he's been urging us (alf and i) to go over to china to study instead. uhh.. yea sure, china is a rising power and all but, my chinese just isn't up to their standards yet lol.