first time listening to adam khoo ytd. he did bring a lil motivation in me, but i was too tired then so didnt really pay much attention. oh, but, after that, the new P went on stage to start a debating session with, i dunno, himself? adam khoo left by then. i swear, he totally killed wadever drive or motivation i had. listening to him made me wanna cry, in frustration of course. im kinda emo nowadays. every little thing makes me wanna cry. no idea why.
sometimes, i really wonder whether im in jc or not. i feel like im still in primary sch. if u happen to enjoy a friendship with a guy, rumours start flying. like, what the fuck? its ok if its a joke, teasing ur fren coz u just want to irritate them (like wad amanda/ky/suemay did to me last time) but its another thing to start gossiping and spreading rumours.
are we forbidden to be friends with the opposite sex? and when these stuff start to reach the very person's ears, have they ever thought abt the strain it might cause in the friendship? are we supposd to stop being friends with someone, who might possibly be a great pillar of strength, just to stop the rumours from spreading? must we sacrifice a friendship to stave off rumours sprouting from the gossipers with no life? not to mention the general awakwardness generated from such rumours whoses sole purpose was for the entertainment for people with nth worthwhile to do.
these are just some thoughts i've been having recently. im just trying to get myself fired up so i can do my hist. the angrier i am, the better my thoughts flow. =)
