sorry is cheap. i know. and it doesnt solve anything. yet somehow, that is all im able to do now. yes, it's my fault. it was my decision to keep it from you till now, when everything was quite obvious to u already. its not abt me not trusting you, but more of some issues of my own i have to deal with. would u rather find out abt it from someone else instead of it coming from me? im not trying to justify myself. i know im in the wrong. sorry doesnt heal the pain. even if u do accept my apologies, i can never be truly forgiven. but one part which i truly did not understand is, when did i ever become frustrated or hurt when pressed with the facts? im really confused. other than keeping it from u till now, wad else have i done wrong? of coz some things which are damaged are irrepairable, but i hope our frenship isnt. for it to turn sour over such a thing, is a pity. to me, its only 'such a thing' because i have no idea wad really went wrong, other than the obvious.


Shame and Guilt of a Young Heart
© By Mariel R. Konowitz

I saw your face in my mind and the guilt began to grow
It started to build and it wouldn't slow

It's my fault and it's me that's to blame
And in my heart is all the shame

I shouldn't have hidden and I should have said
But it's now too late, it has happened