wad else is new? im still me. the idiotic selfish ignorant me. feel so useless. i seem to bring trouble and misery to others only. when will i change? i hate myself.

was talking to jacq earlier today. im finally done with my denial. maybe i shld just give up the whole thing before it goes on. no i have not regretted it. but i feel like... 为他不值 tt sort of thing.

life sucks. maybe im better off dead. ppl might mourn a while then move on. hell. maybe no one will mourn at all. save them the trouble.