maybe i've been too sick or wad. could be my mood lately. i dunno. But i keep having this recurring dreams for a few nights in a row. guess wads it abt. my own funeral. yea. i dunno whether its freaky or not. i mean, i dun feel fear during the dream. just.. some nonchalence of some spectator, yet knowing its my own funeral im attending. hmm weird.

It takes place in this dunno wad church. i see a priest in one corner mumbling. then i only saw relatives from my maternal side, aside frm my aunt's family, for certain reasons. Oh yea, only a couple were there frm my dad's side of the family. Nat and her mother. Speaking of which, i dun think i saw my dad. haha maybe in my mind i know he's still in china and wont be back for a few more mths? haha then i saw my grandpa crying.. hmmm

ok enuf on the weird stuff haha. im beginning to feel better now. after 3 days of rest. yep. tho i still woke up this morn looking real awful. haha Gramps said i look pale..greenish. ugh. hopefully tmr i wont be feeling awful agn. COZ I'VE NO MC FOR TMR!!! so i've gotta go to sch. cant wait for fri!! haha