disenchanted
The 3 months of holidays after 'O' levels are coming to an end. It kinda feels wasted. The first half of it was good. The time was spent in Hong Kong and i got really close to my maternal grandpa. I was also able to spend more time with my cousins. As for the 2nd halfof my 'vacation', i have no idea how to put it...
i spend days rotting away, and nights are spent in a frenzy, taking care of 2 primary 1 kids. i cant even go out in peace coz i need to be home by 6:30pm to fetch them from their school bus. And after that, it'll be the most hectic 3 to 4 hrs in my life.
Things i've been doing only at my leisure, have becomed a neccessity. Cook, wash, iron, tutor, bring them to and fro places, go to bed with them till they fall asleep then creep out agn coz they're scared of the dark.... oh man.. i seem to have lost my life. It's as if they're are actually my kids. I guess the only thing i haven't done for them is work and get a decent salary to support them.
have i mentioned it? I LOST MY LIFE!! i cant even go out sometimes coz i need to be at home for them... I'm not their mother, i dun need to give my life to these two kids. i dun need to spend 4 hrs on the weekends for their spelling tests only for the boy to come back with a big fat zero. i dun need to keep my extremely tired eyes on them 24/7. i dun need to tolerate their outbursts. i dun need to keep hollering like some fishmonger's wife. I dun need to tax my brain for them. i have absolutely no obligations to them. They are not my siblings nor relatives. They're not even close frens of families.
Oh and can i say my final peice? I'm not even paid. i'm just simply a live-in, free-of-charge nanny.
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